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Monday, July 31, 2006

I'm proud to be ONE of the blogging trash out there..

Well.. the crazy 2 weeks has passed.. Its now time to start my revision for all my end of semester exams..

Well, the thing is.. the stressful periods every semester could not have happened at such a wrong time.. Where all the assignment submissions are literally crammed within a specific week.. and there can be other weeks where we are so free, we can afford to play lan games all day.. (Not that i wish to anyway..)

Also, today, as i was supposed to submit 2 assignments in sch, i rushed over to sch.. and GET THIS.. in the process, i lost my HP while travelling to sch.. Of course i panicked lah.. but, what to do.. proects are by far more impt.. Well, i went home early to make calls to my Hp and PRAISE THE LORD.. A foreign Sp student found my HP andis now in possesion of it.. He will deposit in at the SAA tml afternoon.. 3 cheers.. If i had lost this phone, it would be the 2nd time i would have lost a 6610 nokia phone.. and , a year hasn;t past yet since i lost my first 6610.. I just have this problem with 6610 phones.. zzzzz...


Well, today i wish to blog abt what i read in the lifestyle section of the straits times yesterday.. it had this HUGE section on blogging.. the way it potrayed bloggers, it just makes us look like FUCKING ATTENTION SEEKERS..

WHAT THE FUCK MAN.. Not every Blogger out there blogs to get attention FREAKS.. There are people out there who wish to use blogging to campaign for human rights.. if you ppl had ever read the page in my blog where i described what kind of blogger i was, you ppl would know when to stop being so jugdemental towards the whole blogging society..

Quoted from my blog:


WHAT KIND OF BLOGGERS ARE WE ?
There are many kinds of Bloggers out there.. Some waste their time blogging over every single detail in their daily lives.. Others just use their Blog as a form of escape when they recount solely on their experiences and feelings.. There are also a select few who use Blogging in a rather capitalistic sense.. Blogs are wasted too when they educate the public on certain events for a period of time and then left forgotten.. Despite the diversity of Bloggers out there, the true Bloggers are those individuals who choose to use this special tool to campaign for human rights, and to fight for freedom in this corrupted and materialistic world.. We're freedom fighters pushing for changes in this world.. Join the cause..

READ THE FUCKING FINE PRINT..

Ok, i understand that to make ourselves heard in the blogosphere, we need to like differentiate ourselves from the millions of blogging trash out there.. along with thousands more added with each passing day.. blah..blah..blah..boring..

But GET THIS.. i'm proud to have my blog listed as ONE of the trash out there in the blogosphere.. And now, if every other blogger out there starts thinking of political and social issues instead of their own personal self centered lifes, we can begin changing this corrupted world, ONE step at a time..

*[[ And they lived happily ever after... ]]*
|8:44 PM|

Saturday, July 29, 2006

Love..a wordso commonly used.. that it has almost lost its meaning..

Love..

I'm sure evryone has heard abt it.. and, i'm sure everyone has experienced it in some way or another..

But, do we really know what it is? Or do we carry that word in our sentences so loosely nowadays that it seems so cliche?

Love.. The Love for someone.. So much that you may even be willing to sacrifice your life for him/her..

But, its so commonly misused in the media.. where crushes and infatuations are depicted as love, and packaged to the ignorant teenage market.

Well, today, i shall be discussing abt this topic, after much research..

(Please take note that i am open to opinions on this topic..)

Well, this topic came to my mind ever since my infatuation problem in Sp.. And, i did not just go abt things rashly.. Instead, i stood my ground and went abt researching.. Questions like "Whats the diff btwn infatuation and true love" came across my mind.. I went abt seeking the ans, and this is what i have discovered..

Christians..

A Christian relationship is totally diff from relationships happening in the outside world.. The true Christians do not go about having bgr's like what the world does.. Instead, they wait for the right moment for that special someone.. Ok, many non-christians will most probably label what i am saying as total bullshit, and that i am jut giving excuses for not finding a gf or sth.. But, the truth is, the people who are really Christian by actions put their God first..

A Relationship is totally secondary.. In fact, if it was God's will that they should not go into a relationship in their lifetime, then, that Christian will gladly comply.. Yes, it may sound foolish or whatever.. But, the things of this world will not last for eternity.. And a relationship btwn 2 ppl on earth will most definitely not last forever.. even in Heaven..

If so, then why bother having a relationship? Even in the Christian sense? DOesn't it all seem so pointless? Well, we have to take note that Christians choose their partners based on their spiritual level.. Simply put, both parties will have that relationship so that they can each encourage each other and help each other grow more in faith.. They will most certainly put God first and their spouses second.

If so, then why is a "Christian evangelical relation" wrong? Ok, i am not really sure whats the name for this, but its basically a Christian having a BGR with a non-christian, because he/she likes that person. And in doing so, hope that the other party converts to Christianity so that the relationship is seen as an acceptable and justifiable one..
The thing is, it IS NOT justifiable at all.. Well, reason being that the non-Christian can prove to be a stumblign block in faith towards the Christian believer.. Not only does the Christian believer have a higher chance of backslidding, he/she will most likely try to suit the partner to please them. As such, if the partner objects to the Christian gg to Church or any other Christian based activities, and if peer pressure gets the upper hand, the Christian will be in alot of trouble...

Being in a Christian relationship also means that you can afford to let go of your spouse, even in the event of an accident where he/she departs, as you have put God first in your life..

So now this question comes into the picture..

How do you find that special someone??

Well, i researched on this and i found 2 schools of thought..

1. If you think a person is yout special someone, then you shouldn't be worried over it but let God take over.. If she really is your special someone, then God will surely let you know someday.. Just liek how God gave Cain a wife almost ad if it just materialised in frnt of him..

Also, God will show you who your special someone is during some point of your life.. you just have to put your faith and trust in him and wait paitiently for the right moment.. Everything is under God's almighty plan.. you just have to wait for the plan to slowly unfold..

2. You have many special someones out there.. Well, obviously you can only pick one.. But then, why issit that there can be so many out there.. Well, lets have a close look at this analogy.. What if, your special someone dies of an accident, or finds another person.. then technically, you will be out of a special someone, and that other persons special someone will also be out of one.. Get what i mean? See the picture?? What if you chose to remain single?? Then what will happen to your special someone? Also, what if you suddenlly become bad, and become an ahlian or an ah beng, then , wouldn't your future bf or gf be an ah lian or ah beng too?? Hahaha.. Well, i do hope you are seeing the picture.. But there's this HUGE possibility that there may be many many people out there tht can be your special someone..

Also, God won't just drop he special someone like right smack for you to figure out. You need to do something and really go for a certain person you like, so as not to entertain that dreadful "What if" question.. SO basically, you need to chase a person and prove your worth to that person..

Well, we are all created with a freedom of choice.. so ultimately, our future spouse is said to be a result of our actions..

Ok.. so basically i'm stuck at this point.. Some of my Christian Brothers which i have known outside (21++ with steads already) are agreeing on the first, while i have other Christian brothers agreeing on the second..

INFATUATION VS TRUE LOVE..

Since both of these can withstand the test of time, its not uncommon for youngsters to mix the 2 up.. And well,all i can say is this.. True love is more to what today's bgr's has to offer.. I'm very certain most bgr's of today are just done by youngsters for the fun of it, almost as if it were a hobby.. Also, there's alot of peer pressure, sch that when your peers have bgr's, it just seems like the trendy thing to do..

But, what do we actually gain out of it? Heartbreak? A waste of time? A waste of money? Insecurity? People may call me unromantic or whatever.. But the truth is this.. are we looking at people based on their charactieristics or just on their looks? Because, i can safely say that a relationship based on whats in the inside will last.. But, a relationship based on money or looks or whatever material thing will be doomed to failure..

When we look for a person in a relationship, do we jump to it immediately.. or should we think through it? When we look at a person and think of that person as the right one ot start a relationship with, do we see that person as our future husband or wife?? Or some kind of sugar daddy?? Or worse still.. a person in which you wish to have a one night stand with..

I would choose the first.. but knowing what society is like nowadays, you just can't go about telling ppl this.. Youths nowadays will just label you as crazy and etc etc.. Yes, our society is slowly changing.. and, many of our values have been corrupted.. It may be harder to find conservative girls.. or guys.. so much that we are now labeling such people as being extinct.. But, i believe that deep down inside everyone, there's always a softer side.. Behind that tough exterior, there's always some inseurity we may be facing in our lives that we try to cover up..

Whenever i start liking a person, i will ask myself.. What do i see in that person? What are the characteristics that i like abt that person, to determine for myself if what i am experiencing is merely a crush or true love..

Please note that crushes are perfectly fine.. As teenagers, we will all expereince such things.. but, what really matters is how we deal with it..

In a CHristian context, a relationship with love should follow what the bible states..

I can't really recall the bible verse, but i know it went something like " Love is paitient, love is kind.. etc..etc.."

Well, Christians reading my blog will definitely know which verse i am talking abt.. But, the thing is this.. How do we apply what is said in the bible to our relationships? Its pretty simple.. For example.. when the bible said that love is based on trust.. If you trust your spouse, you won't go abt worrying that your spouse will go cheating on you, and you will definitely not be jealous if you see her with other guys..

Another example is the paitient part of a relationship.. In a relationship, you should be slow to anger with your spouse but alwas be forgiving, taking note that your spouse, like you, is only human.. Everyone makes mistakes,and only the person who is without sin can be allowed to judge..

So well.. i really hope that after reading what i have to say, you will have a greater insight of what a Christian relationship is really like..I am still struggling with infatuation problems.. (yes.. its that same problem thats been following me since last sem) but, i am glad that i am not afraid to speak up about it and confide in my saviour lord Jesus..

God Bless you all.. Good night.. =)

*[[ And they lived happily ever after... ]]*
|12:20 AM|

Monday, July 24, 2006

Budget issues..

So, i'm like so budget recently.. Well, lots of financial problems.. coz i am paying off huge depts here and there.. Well, so basically, there's a HUGE lifestyle change in order for me... Alright, so here's what i am usually spending on recently..

Transport - I lost both my ezlink cards.. my Sp one and my adult ez link.. Well, to
make another one and to apply for concession is like so costly..so, i'm down to just the bus.. have to wake up early each day just to take it)

Cost - 90 cents * 2 = $1.80...

Lunch - Well.. its usually just a packet of fries or maybe a few Char Siew Baos, priced at 50 cents each.. sometimes, if i'm lucky, i can get myself some Soy Bean Drink..)

Cost - $1 - $2 (usually less than this)

Beverages - Water Cooler??

Cost - $0

Well, i'm like so pathetic..

No money to buy hair wax..
No money to buy hair dye.. (End up i have to cut my hair short lah)
No money to buy new contact lenses.. (I have been wearing my glasses outside everyday.. this sucks man!!)
No money to buy my Techno Cd's..(Or any other music Cd's for the matter..)
No money to buy enough food to feed myself..
No money to buy drinks..
No money to buy knick knacks..
No money to spend on friends..(Well, i don't usually do so anyway.. =P)
No money to put in the offering bag during Church Service..
No money to offer to my Christian CCA (Not that i wish to anyway..)
No money to service my Hp bill..
No money to buy new shampoo.. (I use my own special shampoo, and its gg to be used up very soon!!)
No money to go out with friends..


Ok.. More may be added to this list in the near future.. But, one thing is certain.. I NEED MONEY!! FAST!! Being poor SUCKS!! I can't do anything!! Damn..


Alright.. then its like the service sector in Sg treats those with no money so badly..

For example, when you go to a high class restaurant.. even if you wear singlet and shorts, if you happen to have lots of money, they will still treat you like kings.. (or queens..) But,if you are cheap, they won't even give a damn abt you..

Well the same thing happened to me.. Just that, it did not happen in a restaurant.. Instead, it happened at a normal shop near Bkt Batok Mrt.. Well, i had no small change for the 2 dollar note i was having and i needed to take the bus.. So, technically, i needed at least 1.80 for a trip to and fro.. So well, i went to the stall to buy some sweets..

I needed to get my money's worth.. So, i chose a packet which contained 5 sweets in it and was selling for 20 cents.. As i was queuing up, the man in frnt of me was paying the cashier and was about to leave.. The aunty thanked him and he was on his way..

I think he bought some kinda phone card or sth.. Muz be those 10 dollars plus plus one lah.. Coz, when i went to pay for my sweet, the aunties expression changed and she took her time to find change for me.. The she just handed me my change without a single word of thanks.. &%$%#&$%*%#!! AUNTY!! I pay you 20 cents you see me no up issit?? What kind of lousy service are you offering?? Must have money then you smile smile and have basic courtesy ah?? I last time used to spend big amounts at your shop ok!!

What kind of service industry is Singapore trying to promote? We will never become a first class service center comparable to that of Switzerland if we do not even know basic courtesy.. Are we just driven by money when we do simple things like saying a word of thanks?? Is the average Singaporean really that self-centered?? Hmm.. sth to think abt..


My life today is summarised in this song..

NICKELBACK - SAVIN ME

Prison gates won't open up for me
On these hands and knees I'm crawlin'
Oh, I reach for you
Well I'm terrified of these four walls
These iron bars can't hold my soul in
All I need is you
Come please I'm callin'
And oh I scream for you
Hurry I'm fallin'

[CHORUS]
Show me what it's like
To be the last one standing
And teach me wrong from right
And I'll show you what I can be
Say it for me
Say it to me
And I'll leave this life behind me
Say it if it's worth saving me

Heaven's gates won't open up for me
With these broken wings I'm fallin'
And all I see is you
These city walls ain't got no love for me
I'm on the ledge of the eighteenth story
And oh I scream for you
Come please I'm callin'
And all I need from you
Hurry I'm fallin'

[CHORUS]

Hurry I'm fallin'

*[[ And they lived happily ever after... ]]*
|9:57 PM|

Friday, July 21, 2006

Busy.. Busy.. Busy..


Well, this few weeks are going to be stressful..

Firstly, there's lots of assignments to complete..

Well, Please note that its not the assignments that are killing me.. Its just that i am tackling lots of other things at the same time..

And please, CCA is just not one of them.. (unlike so many other ppl..they are killing themselves slowly by continuing optional CCA activities even though they are awfully busy.. Soon, you will definitely hear them complaining abt the lack of time given to complete their assignments..crazy folks..)

I really need to be prepared against any last min work..
Well, so here's a brief overview of what's occupying me this few weeks..

1. MCOT (Mobile communications technology) assignments + Unfinished Quizzes??
(Thank God i blogged abt this topic.. or i would have forgotten my quizzes)

2. SDT (System Development Techniques) Project..
(In which i am doing almost everything?)

3. OOPG (Java) Project
(Once again, i'm doing almost everything?)

4. MMWD (Multimedia Web Design) (Fireworks) Assignment
(Well, i feel that this asignment is hopeless)

5. MMWD TEST on wednesday
(Oh man!! I'm so lucky i blogged!! I just remembered this!! I haven't studied yet!! QUICK!! Where's my notes!!)

6. Writing Competition in Sp..
(Extra activity here.. its a short story comm.. but obviously you can't have inspiration last min.. So i need to start early)

7. Money sense writing competition
(Once again, extra activity.. but i need plenty of time to think abt thigns to write)

8. CCA Night Eyes Planning
(Well, i better not complain abt this.. or ppl in my CCA might use this against me..)

9. Church?? Cell Grp??
(Wahahaha.. this are like weekly based activites.. but, i always have this BAD habit of not gg whenever i am busy.. I need to think of it as gg for GOD!! Arrgghh!!)

10. PFP (Personal Financial Planning) GEMS Test
(Cough!! Cough!! Wah liao!! It just proves this one point i have been speculating all along!! I so remember things btr when i blog them!! Once again, i would have forgotten all abt this test if i had not blogged it down!! GOSH!! I haven't touched on this GEM yet!!)


OK!! So i am very busy.. But this is not the point i am trying to show.. My point is.. NEVER EVER TRY TO DO THINGS AT THE LAST MIN.. Always do small parts every now and then when you have the time!!! Trust me!! I would have DIED long ago if i didn't plan before hand for things like this!!


Now, its time for my weekly update on weird things happening around my life..

1. Have you seen the new set of advertisement by OCBC bank? Yah.. its the one where they have Jack Neo in their advertisements.. They have Jack Neo standing in front of the effiel tower in Paris and there's this catch line saying "Wish you were here?"

I can tell you, when i first saw this advertisement on a bus, i was laughing man..
The advertisements just proved to me one point.. Jack Neo has NEVER BEEN to vist the effiel tower in Paris, and that photo was DEFINITELY altered..

I mean, take it from someone who has been to vist the Effiel tower recently.. I can tell you, THE EXPERIENCE SUCKS.. Don't ever think of visiting Paris! Its so OLD and many of the people there are so unfriendly.. There's so much racism that blacks can get beaten up in front of famous national monuments.. France is polluted!! The people just leave their rubbish everwhere.. and OH MAN.. you should see the SLUMS man!! I sahll not say much.. just that the people there are like not acting like they should..gangsters.. etc.. France is also heavily vandalised.. with every other bulding having graffiti on it.. Even the trucks have graffiti on them.. And the railways too!! In the railway, ppl can go about blasting their rap music and dance around.. its SO RUDE LAH..

Below the Effiel tower, the resturant is also serving food at sky high prices..

The effiel tower is nothing but a passe monument..

Once maybe, during the 1970's to 1980's, france could have passed off as a must see destination, where it was thought of as a romantic place.. etc..etc.. But, now,take my advice..DON'T EVEN THINK ABOUT SETTING FOOT THERE..

So, OCBC'S "Wish you were here" tagline is laughable indeed..

Ok.. today, as i was returning from sch, i was gg past the shelter linking the bus terminal to bkt batok met station.. ANd there were like3 men giving out free Hup Seng Cream and Wholemeal Crackers.. Well, being the usual kiasu Singaporean, i took my free sample.. Well, i could have taken more but i stopped as i knew that my house had plenty of such crackers.. (Except that they were of another brand)

As i walked towards the mrt station, i saw the old lady that sold tissues everyday at one corner..I was like.. wah liao eh.. those men were giving free samples to everyone, but here was a lady truly in need of such crackers and you don't even offer her any!! I was so tempted to give my cracker samples to her, but well, i walked along with the rest of the crowd in the end..

But this is like so stupid lah.. Because of promoting their products for the maximum profits those men just didn't give the old lady any crackers..

This sounds so much like the PAP.. Lift upgrading only to those wards that support them.. Well, even though situations have improved, and the PAP has announced lift upgrading also for the non- PAP wards,they do not get priority and have to wait till as late as 2011..

This is like so unfair.. HEY PAP.. ITS JUST 2 WARDS LAH!! you are already given the spoils of the recent election victory.. Can't you play a bit more fair this time around (unlike what happened in the elections) and do something about this issue?!?!

Ok.. One last issue before i sign off.. I really need to start tackling my assignments and study for my tests..

How to evade paying extra bus fees despite regular checks.. You just need 90cts..

Well, this is one clear incident of how i evaded the recent fair hike and increased checks on fair dodgers and still kept paying a small sum of 90cts..

1. Get onto the bus and act unintersted towards the bus driver..

2. Just drop your 90cts into the coin slots smoothly..

3. Walk away as fast as possible to the back seat as if there's nth wrong with the sum you just put..

-----> If the bus driver asks you how much you put in, look into his face, say "90cts" and turn to walk to the back of the bus quickly.. Do not do this slowly as he may take your hesitation as prove that you are trying to bluff your way into paying a lower fare..

-----> If he ever asks you where you are heading, just reply a destination thats closer to where you just boarded the bus.. For me, its clementi as the place i boarded the bus is at Sp..

(The Bus uncle will surely be very embarrased for suspecting you one.. coz, the 90cts is surely more than enough to cover that "short" destination that you lied about)

4. Next, head straight to the back of the bus, prefably not right at the back where he can spot you with his rear view mirror, but at a seat where someone is seated infront, so that he can cover you..

5. After a few bus stops, the bus uncle would have forgotten abt you.. Also, when the bus stops in a location where there are plently of passengers alighting and boarding.. (eg: Clementi) take advantage of the confusion to change seats till you are completely sure that you not within the Bus drivers lign of sight.. The confusion involved in scanning the passengers boarding will surely distract the bus driver.. He also confirm forget your face like this..

6. When its your stop to alight, (Best is an interchange), do not get out of your seat first.. Let others get out of their seat first.. when the bus has come to a complete stop at your destination and has opened its doors, sneak out behind those ppl alighting and get out of the bus as fast as you can.. If you are at an interchange, move quickly into the crowd so that he cannot spot you anymore..

Even if he was to remember you while you are alighting, you should be gone like the wind by then..

*[[ And they lived happily ever after... ]]*
|7:55 PM|

Thursday, July 20, 2006

Funny comics..

*[[ And they lived happily ever after... ]]*
|7:45 PM|

Sunday, July 16, 2006

Encourage for changes... Not for praises..


What i am showing here is part of an article i wrote to the crusade yahoo grps during Nov 18 2005.. Ard 2 semesters ahead, i have yet to see changes.. Its just very sad and disheartening that even though people keep telling me how encouraging my postings are, they do not see the meaning behind it..Its almost as if encouraging them has lost its meaning.. This was one of the reasons why i did not feel compelled to write anymor, even though i knew that my postings were very impt in lifting the spirits of the ministry.. Firstly, i did not start writing to be praised.. i wrote to see changes.. I'm fighting for change..Well, I have already been hinting to the Crusaders to get them to assimilate everyone into the ministry so long ago.. Its basically up to them to listen.. We are all created with a freedom of choice, and i can't expect them to have friendly relations with most of the Crusaders like i do..


--START POSTING--


Ok, so i found out what makes us Christians, but i was still finding
out.. What makes us Crusaders? Is it the number of crusade activites
that we go that confirms we are crusaders? Is it the number of times
we visit the crusade room to make ourselves known to fellow
crusaders that makes us a crusader??

Well, i'm not sure abt my fellow brothers and sisters views, but me
ans to those questions would be a definite "NO!!" I feel that i
joined crusade to grow more spiritually and increase my shield of
faith.. (What Changyao shared to the crusaders during my very first
CLM..) And i joined crusade so that i can be encouraged to be a
blessing to others..

Yeah, before i joined crusade and went for the meta camp, i was very
scared to reach ot the lost.. Yeah, many Chrisatians out there are
still living a lie and being deceived that they can be content with
what they have and just stay in their "Jerusalem" or maybe just
serve in their Church and grow more, but forget abt otheir friends
and families and relatives and just basically everybody they know..

In fact, i feel that its a blessing if u are popular and
have "contacts", because u can reach out to more ppl and can set
examples of what Christians are like..

Becuase, unlike Christians, many non-Christians tend to be completely
judgemental.. If their only Christian friend is you and they want to
find out what a Christian is like, where would they turn to find the
ans? A local church near them? No.. they would turn to you.. Yeah,
so our actions will ultimately determine what our non-Chriatian
friends will think about Christians.. And if they have bad
impressions of us as Christians, then it would be hard for us or
maybe even other harvesters in Singapore to share Christ to them..

I had always thought that if i spent more time in Crusade, i would
be more distant from my class.. But, i realised that i was wrong.. I
realised that basically it was my behaviour and attitude in class
that contributed to that "distance".. And yeah, where i ha failed to
make friends in my class, other Christians in my class found it
quite easy to socialise with them.. So yeah, they did not
discriminate because of my religion but because of myself..

I did not blame them for thinkig that way because they were non-
christian and yeah, they could have been judgemental.. The crusade
has never judged me and i really felt loved by everyone in crusade..



However i would like to address and issue that i feel is happening
in the Crusade..Whenever a newcomer goes to crusade, i feel that
many crusader's may not feel compiled to approach him/her and talk
to him/her.. And, i that newcomer ,be it Christian or Non-Christian
might not feel welcomed by the crusade.. Yeah, although there are
still are Crusaders who will approach these people, but if
every Crusader makes the effort to make these people feel welcome, i
believe that they will already be making decisions during those
crucial moments moment to join he crusade..


A newcomer to Crusade not feeling welcomed is like a non-Christian
being invited to Church and after seeing being avoided by almost
everyone, basically not wish to visit that Church again.. So, i would
like to share with the Crusaders what one of my Church Pastors
shared lately one Sunday Service.. Well, apparently, his duaghter
had been sucessful in inviting a muslim guy to Church one day.. But,
when they were sitting in for service, the Church was very
judgemental over that muslim by whispering to the pastor's duaghter
with questions like "What is he doing here?" or questions like "Why
did you bring him here?" and no one wanted to approach that Muslim
to make him feel welcome.. So the next Sunday service, that Muslim
guy just stopped coming.. He even stopped contact with the pastor's
duaghter.. Well, what am i trying to say here? I am not trying
to judge anyone but i feel that i have failed in many areas in
making people feel welcome in crusade..

Well, i am trying very very hard to build up relations with all of
the brothers and sisters in the Crusade.. I'm not sure if you all
have noticed, but i am trying to build relations with all of the
Crusaders.. But, i have failed in someways.. I am not sure if you
all have noticed.. But there were 2 people who approached me with
the intention to join the crusade.. Well, i brought them to the
Crusade but within a short span of time, they told me that they did
not wish to continue in the Crusade.. That saddened me a lot because
i was wondering if i could have done much more in making them feel
welcome in Crusade.. Maybe they would have still been in the
Crusade.. =(


Back to my topic.. Even though the church or maybe even crusade is a
christian organisation and not a corporate organisation, there will
still be people who will want to do things because they wish to do
thingd just to seen by others as holy and not because thye want to
serve God.. SO yeah, i really hope that our reason fo doing things
is not to be seen in man's eyes but in god's eyes.. I hope that even
if they do not get leadership roles in Crusade, they would not
complain or grumble because i feel that the devil is trying to break
the unity of the crusaders..


-- END POSTING--

*[[ And they lived happily ever after... ]]*
|7:58 PM|

Saturday, July 15, 2006

CPF money sense competition at RP.. (Boring.. Waste Of Time.. Whatever..)

Today, i went for the CPF money sense competition at Republic Poly..

(Yes.. we have to do that boring Voyage Of Life (VOL) quiz.. obviously, i wasn't gg there with the intention of winning.. I mean.. you tell me that out of so many contestants you can get to the top 3?!?! Don't come talk crap with me man.. I just go there for the experience.. and maybe some CCA points? hahaha..)

But well, i have a few things to say about this event..

1. Today is just NOT my day..

When participating in this event, my laptop just couldn't access the competition website.. Well, i could access the trail website, but i just don't know why i was so unlucky as to not be able to access the competition website..So, i wasted 10 mins of the 30 min competition time trying to figure out the problem until they provided me with a spare laptop from one of the RP lecturers..


2. If you are not one of the winners, its a total waste of time..

The competition website has all the same questions for its voyage of life quiz as the trial websites.. WTH.. this means that if you memorised all the ans for the questions, you can finish the quiz faster and keep trying and trying..

This means that it actually doesn't test much on your financial knowledge!!! It just tests your memory lah!!

The VOL quiz is also mostly based on luck as well.. So if you were to land on lucky spots most of the time, than you are in for a sure win..

Also, i heard from my rp friend that the top scorer for the day , which was from rp actually cheated!! &$#&#&*$#&!!

My friend was sitting nxt to him and he told me tht Guy actually opened 4 browser windows to simultaneously tackle the quiz!!


3. The people in charge of this event tend to be very biased..

If you are a winner of the event, the camera loves you.. But, if you aren't one, then you are just another one of the crowd.. just helping to fill space in some part of tomorrows headline news.. Also, during the table games when they threw questions to the audience, guess where the questions were from?? FROM THE VOL QUIZ AGAIN!! What kind of financial knowledge testing are you trying to get from the students??

Also, they asked those sitting at the tables to keep standing when they ask for answers to the questions.. Well, many stood at the same time, but they chose those people from tables that were in their lign of sight!!

4. During the photo taking for Sp, the last chance for me to actually prove that i was there at the event, the business students kept crowding at the front for the photo shoot. I mean, its obvious wad.. they all know each other already, so sure hug close to each other.. (Reminds me of Crusade.. hahaha..) Well, you don't expect me to go in front with them for the picture yeah? So i went behind, where i was covered up completely.. One of the lecturers asked me and another EEE guy to grab some chairs and stand on them.. Well, we were in the midst of doing so, when they too the picture!! WITHOUT US!! Of course we complain lah.. but the lecturer give us that couldn't care less attitude.. %$&#&%@&%&*!! So, no retake of picture.. -.-"

5. The winner of the event. (who in fact, was NOT supposed to have won.. took home a SONY VAIO notebook, while the rest of us got pathetic paper notebooks and pens.. Yes.. its those money sense notebooks that were last seen at the exhibition at SB blk..) Of course i complain that he cheated to my PFP lecturer and the SB director lah... But they come and tell me sadly.. "What can we do?".. WAH LIAO EHX!! That FREAK can just get away with this CRAP!! UNFAIR!! UNFAIR!! SP should have gotten all 3 top scorers!! SP!! SUPPORT SP!!

But, as i went through this event, suddenly , i felt very disappointed with myself for just criticizing the event and not looking at it from all angles..

Just like what the I not Stupid 2 movie kept trying to say..

I soon realised that there was actually more than meets the eye.. There were actually green pastures in this event!! (Although not many)

1. I managed to meet and greet the business director from my school..

2. I made 3 new contacts..

3. I met an old SP classmate who had since transfered to RP and chatted quite a bit with him..

4. I finally went inside Republic Poly's new campus in Woodlands!! ( Not that i had been to their old campus at all..) If anyone asked me to go to any of these places.. even if it was my long time close friend who is studying in RP, i would surely have said "NO!".. I mean, who wants to go to such a eerie and vacant and unfinished poly like RP?? *shudders* Come on lah.. even gg to NYP gives me the creeps.. But, because of this competition, i finally visited Republic Poly!! (The map of the campus like quite ok.. but in reality, its SO SMALL!!)

5. I may get CCA points for this event.. (Oh they BETTER give me man!! I don't want my time and money to be wasted today!!)



So well, i think God is also trying to educate me that hey. I can't just be so judgemental.. I can actually make SOME good out of boring events such as this.. hahaha.. Well,i really wish i could apply this sensible thinking to other areas of my life.. =P

*[[ And they lived happily ever after... ]]*
|6:43 PM|

Wow.. cool..

You Are An ENFP

The Inspirer

You love being around people,
and you are deeply committed
to your friends.
You are also unconventional,
irreverant,
and unimpressed by authority
and rules.
Incredibly perceptive,
you can usually sense if
someone has hidden motives.
You use lots of colorful language
and expressions.
You're quite the storyteller!

You would make an excellent
entrepreneur,
politician, or journalist.
What's Your Personality Type?

*[[ And they lived happily ever after... ]]*
|12:07 AM|

Friday, July 14, 2006

ALERT!! Corruption in our Government!! PLEASE READ ON!!

Today, we're gg to discuss abt the opression that the governemnt opposes on us citizens.. Following recent high profile incidents such as that of the PAP taking action against poor old Mr Brown, i felt that it was time to make a stand.. my stand.. along with those of thousands of other netizens from Singapore..

To the PAP: there's only a few words that i can say to describe your actions.. "So lame.." And yes.. that is taken directly from the lign used frequently by Tom in I Not Stupid 2..

Your actions fail to impress the multitudes of Singaporeans like me and, instead of enforcing a geater authority amongst us, it is clear that the direct opposite has happened..

More and more Singaporeans, sick and tired of how you control our lives, are starting to stand up for the cause.. The cuase to promote freedom of speech in this society..

We do not care what laws you impose on us bloggers in the hopes of controlling what we say.. The fact is... WE DON'T GIVE A FUCKING DAMN..If a country starts to show signs of poor leadership, it is only inevitable that opression will arise..

Take countries like Afganistan for example.. When their government wasn't leading well and was corrupt as ever, the people took the chance to voice their disagreements by forming seperatist groups, with the support of the US government..

In Indonesia.. when the Government started to raise fuel prices.. The people disagreed and went on strike..

In the Philipines.. due to poor leadership in their parliament, the people started to go on strike and some even threatened to use force if the president did not step down.. The parilament was even divided into 2 camps..

In Thailand, Due to poor leadership, the people also went on strike.. They also called on their leaders to step down..

In France, due to the poor economic progress and also the lack of jobs, the people went on strike...

As i continue down my list, i am slowly getting uninterested in details.. But one thing is certain.. They ALL went on strike in some way or another..

So get this.. POOR leadership leads to something we call -------> RESENTMENT..

And RESENTMENT leads to -------> DISTRUST..

I mean, with the kind of pay our leaders are getting, we would expect more transparency in parliament or something..

But, what do we get?? Some FUCKING BULLSHIT about Mr Brown being too liberal in his speech and that something needs to be done to curb this kind of radical speech..

What for??

For the good of society?? WHAT THE HELL.. GO FUCK OFF LAH..

Do you know just how many people resent your leadership to a large extent??



CARE TO ISSUE WARRENTS OF ARREST TO ALL OF US???

I rather sue you FREAKS on the grounds of CORRUPTION!!

YOU FREAKS ARE ONE OF THE HIGHEST PAID POLITICIANS IN THE WORLD!!

EVEN GEORGE BUSH DOESN'T EARN AS MUCH AS ONE OF YOU GUYS!!

*Hears gasps from all around the world*


Where does all the money go to?? Oh.. forgive me.. i forgot.. Mr Lee Kuan Yew said to the world that paying our leaders highly was one of the best measures to prevent corruption in Singapore.. (Everybody: "Diao!!")

WHAT KIND OF BULLSHIT REASONING IS THAT?? YOU PAY PEOPLE MORE SO THAT THEY WON'T BE CORRUPT??


THE CORRUPTION IS ALREADY IN THE PAY PACKAGE DAMN YOU!! OBVIOUSLY WITH SUCH A HIGH PAY, YOU WON'T NEED TO BE CORRUPT!! (Everybody: "Eh!! Yah Horx!!")


Hey, so why don't i say this.. If you want to shut off people like me, why not PAY ME BIG TIME?? I want a annual pay package of 10k to keep blogging nice things abt the government and vote for them during all the upcoming elections.. How's abt that??

(Everybody: "Me!! Me!! Me!! I want!! I want!! Give me!!")


FUCKING FAGGOTS.. I DARE YOU TO COME AFTER PEOPLE LIKE US.. SCARED HUH?? I ALREADY FOUND THE BIGGEST FLAW IN YOUR LEADERSHIP SYSTEM.. YOU CAN'T KEEP OPPRESSING US FOREVER!!

*[[ And they lived happily ever after... ]]*
|11:47 AM|

Wednesday, July 12, 2006

Reflections on poly 50..

Well, i'm not gg to go abt a ridiculously long posting over every freaking detail of what happened during this event..

The thing is.. I was performing.. it was better than i expected.. the team i was in came in best of the 3 teams tht Crusade sent to compete.. I did not expect such a nice position for my team..

But.. why am i still dissapointed?? Is it because i felt my team could have done better?? Mishaps were kept to a minimum.. Then, what was it that just kept me so upset??

Let me tell you.. its because i realised how distant i was becoming from a few Crusaders.. a very specific few.. Its not their fault that we have become so distant.. I feel that it was mostly my part to play that caused this dramatic chain of events..

Firstly.. i chose to run away from this infatuation problem in my life.. its not the other parties fault when our friendship turns stale.. secondly.. i chose to distant from a few other crusaders because i felt tht things were not working out in the friendship.. communication was there.. but i just felt it was just not working in the way i expected it too..

Alright.. to those parties tht i feel i have distanced from.. (I'm sure you guys can feel the distance between you and me already) i'm really sorry.. i let my feelings and also my judgement get in the way.. If things can change for the better and if we could ever reconcile.. then i will be willing to do so.. hopefully..

I'm really sorry.. but things are just not gg in the right direction currently.. i hope tht all those ppl i am thinking of read this.. i just hope so.. Also, if you feel tht you are distancing, pls pls dun feel intimidated or anything.. i really hope tht we can take steps to mend our friendships..

Lastly, i feel that there's always a first step to everything. so.. how's abt tagging in my blog? =)

*[[ And they lived happily ever after... ]]*
|11:17 PM|

Monday, July 10, 2006

Alright.. lets forget about that past story of my life..




Your Birthdate:
September 9



You are a born idealist,
with more pet causes
than you can count.

You prefer be around others,
both when working
and while relaxing.

Generous and giving,
you believe you can change
the world one person
at a time.

You're open minded
and tolerant.
People feel like
they can tell
you anything.



Your strength:
Your go-with-the-flow
flexibility



Your weakness:
Your flair for
the over dramatic



Your power color: Pine green



Your power symbol: Circle



Your power month:
September

*[[ And they lived happily ever after... ]]*
|4:51 PM|

Thursday, July 06, 2006

We're rebels fighting for a lost cause.. The truth sets us free..

This Afternoon:

I've been hurt so much inside Crusade, that yesterday i finally blew it.. I was so angry about what i was seeing in Crusade, i just turned violent..

I was so upset over how Crusade was progressing.. I was on the verge of tears.. It was almost as if all those time i spent in that organisation had been for naught..

After spending time during these months gathering advice and information, i have finally come to this conclusion that what i am experiencing in Crusade is only natural.. I have even talked to one of my Crusade staff over this issue and well, his response was quite positive..

If he understands what i am going through, than, the other Crusaders have NO RIGHT to say anything.. Take your hurtful comments away.. Stop hugging to each other like some sick disease.. Stop the lies and deception.. And STOP telling me whats right for my life!!

I'm sick of it when you ppl tell me how negatively i potray myself in Crusade.. The fact is, i don't get this chance to show my other side.. And the thing is, its human nature to remember the Negative aspects of others more than the positive aspects.. I'M SO SICK OF CRUSADE, SO MUCH THAT I JUST WISH TO THROW VULGARITIES ALL OVER..

Hey, if you so happen to reading my blog and know of Crusade in some way or another, let me tell you this.. its not always a bed of roses.. There are ppl like me who feel are rights are being violated.. The truth is out there.. And it will SET YOU FREE...


Today night:

Well, after a rather unperforming soccer match with the Crusade, (I felt i was rather unperforming..) I headed back home.. I brought 2 of my DIT coursemates to the soccer event actually.. But i was very hurt and dissapointed when they commented over a few of the Crusader's for not playing properly with vulgarities while we were resting.. I just felt very saddened by their actions and i was reconsidering bringing ppl from my course to Crusade ever again..

After that underperfoming match, i headed straight home to train for poly 50.. Usually, i do not over details abt my daily life in my blog, but i just feel a need to do so today..

As i was running up stairs at a 30 storey block near my house, the events that had unfolded recently in Crusade just flashbacked in my mind.. I kept thinking of how ungrateful a few Crusaders had been to me etc.. and.. i.. i just couldn't control my emotions during that few moments.. It could be seen as an act of desperation, but what mattered was that i collasped at one corner sobbing..

I was so devastated.. so hurt.. and i was left so vulnerable.. They say that every person has limits before he/she breaks down.. Well, i just feel that i have reached that limit.. I was so depressed over the things that were happening.. I just kept crying out over why all these had to befall upon me.. I kept questioning why i had to experience so much rejection in my life..

I just didn't wish to continue training for poly 50 anymore.. I didn't wish to do it so tht Crusade will benefit in any way.. The inner voice in my mind kept trying to turn all this devastation in my life into uncontrolled hate.. I didn't wish for that to happen..

Deep down inside of me, i know that i've already lost the battle to continue preserving Crusade.. all the efforts trying to unite the ministry has drained so much of my energy.. both physically and spritually.. And, now i'm left with 2 options that leave no answers.. If i continue to stay inside Crusade, i will be hurt even more.. But, if i choose to leave, i will be escaping from reality.. God, please help me..

As i write my thoughts down tonight, i can't help but break down into tears once again..



This is me..

and i'm one of the lost members of Crusade..


view all of the postings related to this issue here..
http://www.geocities.com
/c0nfus3ds0ul/
my_crusade_story.doc

*[[ And they lived happily ever after... ]]*
|11:44 AM|

Tuesday, July 04, 2006

We're the rebels of society.. come and get us..

[The lyrics of these 3 songs expresses how i feel while inside Spccc.. Crusade.. Singapore Polytechnic Campus Crusade For Christ..Ok.. lets get to the point.. its wadever you guys wish to call it.. I truly believe in cause and effect.. i hope this applies too to this organisation..]

Title: Still Waiting
Artist: Sum41
Album: Does This Look Infected
Year: 2002

So am I still waiting
For this world to stop hating
Can't find a good reason
Can't find hope to believe in

Drop dead a bullet to my head
Your words are like a gun in hand
You can't change the state of the nation
We just need some motivation
These eyes have seen no conviction
Just lies and more contradiction

So tell me what would you say
I'd say its time too late

So am I still waiting
For this world to stop hating
Can't find a good reason
Can't find hope to believe in

Ignorance and Understanding
We're the first ones to jump in line
Out of step for what we believe in
But whos left? To start the bleeding
How far will we take this
It's not hard to see through the fakeness

So tell me what would you say
I'd say its time too late

So am I still waiting
For this world to stop hating
Can't find a good reason
Can't find hope to believe in

This can't last forever
Time won't make things better
I feel so alone
Can't help myself
And no one knows
If this is worthless
Tell me... so

What have we done
We're in a war that can't be won
This can't be real
I don't know what to feel

So am I still waiting
For this world to stop hating
Can't find a good reason
Can't find hope to believe in

So am I still waiting
For this world to stop hating
Can't find a good reason
Can't find hope to believe in

---------------------------------------------

Artist: Simple Plan
Album: No Pads, No Helmets, Just Balls
Title: I'm Just A Kid
Year: 2002

I woke up it was 7
I waited till 11
just to figure out that no one would call
I think i got a lot of friends but I don't hear from them
What's another night all alone?
When your spending everyday on your own
and here it goes

[Chorus:]
I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid, I know that its not fair
Nobody cares, cause I'm alone and the world is
having more fun than me {tonight}

And maybe when the night is dead, I'll crawl into my bed
I'm staring at these 4 walls again
I'll try to think about the last time, I had a good time
Everyone's got somewhere to go
And they're gonna leave me here on my own
and here it goes

[Chorus:]
I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid, I know that its not fair
Nobody cares, cause I'm alone and the world is
having more fun than me

What the fuck {hell} is wrong with me?
don't fit in with anybody
How did this happen to me?
Wide awake I'm bored and I can't fall asleep
and every night is the worst night ever

I'm just a kid
I'm just a kid
I'm Just a kid (I'm just a kid)
Yeah, I'm just a kid (I'm just a kid, I'm just a kid)
Yeah, I'm just a kid (I'm just a kid, I'm just a kid)

[Chorus:]
I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid, I know that its not fair
Nobody cares, cause I'm alone and the world is
nobody wants to be alone in the world

I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid, I know that its not fair
Nobody cares, cause I'm alone and the world is
nobody wants to be alone in the world
Nobody cares, cause I'm alone and the world is
having more fun than me tonight

I'm all alone tonight
Nobody cares tonight
Cause I'm just a kid tonight

---------------------------------------------

Title: Last Resort
Artist: Papa Roach
Album: Infest
Year: 2001

Cut my life into pieces
This is my last resort,suffocation, no breathing
Don't give a fuck if I cut my arm bleeding
This is my last resort

Cut my life into pieces
I'v reached my last resort, suffocation, no breathing
Don't give a fuck if I cut my arm bleeding
Do you even care if I die bleeding
Would it be wrong, would it be right
If I took my life tonight, chances are that I might
Mutilation out of sight and I'm contemplating suicide

[chorus]
Cause I'm losing my sight, losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine.
Losing my sight, losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine

I never realized I was spread too thin
Till it was too late and I was empty within
Hungry, feeding on chaos and living in sin
Downward spiral, where do I begin
It all started when I lost my mother
No love for myself and no love for another
Searching to find a love upon a higher level
Finding nothing but questions and devils

[chorus]
Cause I'm losing my sight, losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
Losing my sight, losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine

Nothing's alright, nothing is fine
I'm running and I'm crying
I'm crying
I'm crying
I'm crying
I'm crying

I can't go on living this way

Cut my life into pieces
This is my last resort, suffocation, no breathin
Don't give a fuck if I cut my arm bleeding
Would it be wrong would it be right
If I took my life tonight, chances are, that I might.
Mutilation out of sight and I'm contemplating suicide

[chorus]
Cause I'm loosing my sight, loosing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
Losing my sight, loosing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine

Nothing's alright, nothing is fine
I'm running and I'm crying

I-can't-go-on-living-this-way
Can't go on
Living this way
Nothing's al-right

*[[ And they lived happily ever after... ]]*
|9:27 PM|

Monday, July 03, 2006

A new posting for a new month..

Gosh.. i just realised that recently, i have stopped being inactive in my blog and i've started to flood my blog with SO MANY postings..

Ok.. i know that its probably very tiring trying to catch up with my postings.. but, i'm like all of you.. i'm still learning and i really hope that you readers will start to give me your honest feedback on how to improve this blog. =)

Well, what have i been doing this past week.. POLY 50 TRAINING.. Well, i know that i have started my training rather late, but its better late than never.. I also know that i can't expect a miracle to happen when i am training during the days leading to that big event..

I'm more of a stamina runner, but poly 50 stresses so much on sprinting.. hey, this is so unfair..

Well, lately, i have been trying to keep fit by running long distances.. i've started running from bukit batok mrt to jurong mrt and back again without stopping.. My younger bro tried to run with me but he gave up way too soon and took a bus back home.. hahahaha.. poor bro.. =P

Well, i also ran around the entire bukit batok west estate area around 2-3 times without stopping.. Also, i have been racing up and down my HDB block constantly during my trainings as a form of warming up.. my block is ard 25 storey's high so you can imagine.. Well, i realy hope that the trainings so far should help keep me in shape for the tougher trainings to come.. (the sprintings..GOSH!!) My dad recommended that i try sprinting around the running track below my house with a 2 mins each time before sprinting again.. trying non-stop..

Well, the thing is, i am nvr good in sprinting.. even in sec sch.. i flunked very badly in sprinting..

Ok.. so i'm not much of an athelete.. its also partly due to my backbone problem.. i should not be running for poly 50 in the first place.. when i am training, sometimes i will get back aches and stuff like that.. i feel so lousy!! Why can't i be able to excercise normally like others do!!

I have to wait for my operation at the end of this year before i can start to excercise normally.. but the thing is.. i didn't even want this problem to befall upon me! Who wants to be born with such a condition!! And, the operation and hospitalisation fees are enormous!! Its gg to cost a bomb and tear a huge hole in my parent's wallets!!

Many times, i keep feeling that i have let my parents down by spending too much money on my part.. most of this high end spending is due to operations.. i keep wondering why i have to go for all this and let my family have so much financial burdens.. Msny times, i wonder if it was better if i wasn't born and taxed them so much since birth..


New posting!!

Ok.. here's a grea piece of news.. I got the highest in class for one of mmy modules!! SDT.. system development techniques.. Well, not that i am bragging or anything, but firstly, i would like to give thanks to the AWESOME GOD up there!! Without him, i would not have recieved so high marks!! 79.5 !! (Well, i made a lot of careless mistakes..)

Now, i shall explain why i really need to thank God for my grade.. Basicaly, on Monday, the 26th of June, i was busy prreparing for a test at 4 o clock.. MCOT.. But, the thing was, i never knew that i had an SDT test at 1 o clock!! I was so stunned when my friends told me that there was an SDT test on Monday.. I always thought it was on Tuesday!! So well, i panicked and i quickly ran through all my SDT lecture slides in my laptop ust trying to refresh my memory.. I haven't touched that smodule for a few dayas already!! Ard 4 days!! I was banking more on Java revision and i didn't really study for SDT.. Well, during the hours leading to the exam, i even gave counselling on the module to a fewof my classmates.. I really thank God that i was at least able to impart some knowledge to them so that they could do the test better..

Well, i wasn't really confident after leaving the exam hall and i could only give a weak smile to my classmates when they queried me on my expected performance.. But, who knew i could turn in such a high grade? Praise God!!

Updated: Concerning the test at 4 o clock that day.. i just got back my results.. i got 76 marks!! Praise the LORD once again!! 1 A 1 B.. Cool man!!


Isaac Ying Bing Hao, your Personality Summary
Key Areas of your Personality
Your personality stands out from the average person's particularly in the areas of:
  • Your High Curiosity Level
  • Your High Emotional Reactivity Level
  • Your High Multi-tasking Ability
  • Your High Need for Variety
  • Your High Empathy/ Sensitivity Level
One chapter of your 100-page Personality Report is dedicated to how you compare to the average woman and the average man in the 8 main areas of personality, and how this affects the way that people interact with you.
Subset of your Personality Measurement:

Low High
Social Need
Openness
Approval Need
Ability to Focus
Emotionality
Reliance on Intuition
Tolerance for Change
Your personality is made up of a unique pattern of traits. These traits impact the way you think, feel, and behave on an everyday basis. In your report you will read a detailed explanation of each of your core personality traits, including your strengths and challenge points.
Your Interaction Style:
You scored 65 in the area of extroversion/ introversion, which means that your energy is directed primarily outward towards other people and things - rather than inward. You don't mind being alone, but you feel most energized and inspired when you are around other people. Your mixed extroversion/ introversion tendency affects your learning style: For example, it is more effective for you to listen to a person explain something than it is for you to read about it on your own.
Social patterns: You are right-brained when it comes to interacting with people and recognizing emotions in other people. When you look at a person's face you focus on what you see on the left. Hearing preferences are an interesting exception to this right-left crossover. For example, if two people were talking behind a closed door and you needed to put your ear on the door to hear, you would tend to use your right ear instead of your left.
This Personality Summary is based on only 2 out of the 31 personality dimensions we measured in the questionnaire. Your 100-page Personality Report is based on all 31 dimensions and will give you and in-depth analysis of your unique personality.


-- to be continued--

*[[ And they lived happily ever after... ]]*
|10:58 AM|

Saturday, July 01, 2006

BLOG THINGS.. TEST




You Are 92% Gentleman



No doubt about it, you are a total gentleman.

You please the pickiest ladies, and you make everyone in a room feel comfortable.

Are You A Gentleman?

This taken from a friends blog.. found it to be quite sexist..

The Root of all Evil =D

For guys, chasing girls requires time and money...

Therefore :
girls = money X time

since "time is money"
time = money

thus,
girls = money X money
girls = money^2

and since "money is the root of all evil",

evil^1/2 = money

evil = money^2

In conclusion, girls
= money^2
and thus,
= evil(proven)

Ok.. its now time for my views..

i mean.. if the relationship wasn't a Christian relationship, where both parties would learn to give and take and be sensitive to each other's feelings, then its possible that the relationship could result in a lot of money spent in upkeep.

But well, in a Christian relationship, both parties would definitely put God first and each other as secondary.. they will trust God as their provider and they will not tax each other too much.. Well, basically, this is what i feel. =P


names i go by:
Bing,
Biscuit,
Ah Zak,
Bing Hao,
Isaac,
c0nfus3ds0ul (the online id for dunno how many accounts..)

parts of the heritage:
chinese - cantonese

things that scare me most:
rejection
going to hell
being bullied
younger bro growing taller than me

everyday essentials:
techno
food
personal hygiene
God

things that you're wearing:
Giordano Jeans
Bossini Polo t-shirt

fave bands/singers:
P.O.D
Groove Coverage
Casting Crowns
Ryan Caberra
Daniel Beddingfield

things i want in a relationship:
trust
faith
paitience
a listening ear
acceptance
kind
caring
not proud
not rude
not self-seeking
not easily angered
keeps no record of wrongs
does not delight in evil
rejoices in the truth
PUTS GOD FIRST
always protects, trusts, hopes, perseveres..


2 truths and 1 lie:
I have a soft spot for animals.
I love social work.
I like jazz music.

physical things about the opposite sex that appeals to me:
Height is not an issue.. Just not taller than me lah!! haha.. (feeling so inferior in height nowadays) =P
Hair not short? At least medium length?
Has good personal hygiene..

Favourite hobbies:
blogging
encouraging others
spreading the good news
listening to various types of music (experimented with techno earlier.. now explorng rnb)

things i want badly now:
to be able to have a closer relationship with God.
not to serve 2 or more masters but one.. God himself.
those new techno albums in CD Rama to add to my collection.
Money to buy new contact lenses.. I'm poor!! Full of Depts.. =(

places i wanna go for vacation:
Japan.
England.
Currently, thats just about all.. =P

3 things i wanna try doing:
Writing my own short story?
Making my stand and getting myself heard more through my blog?
Doing a really cool animation using flash.
Skateboarding... I have backbone problems.. so i can't try this out.. =(


3 people i wanna see doing this:
Erm.. let me ask this question.. doing what??

*[[ And they lived happily ever after... ]]*
|12:08 AM|

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